Woo Hoo!

24 10 2010

So, two things: I’m now in Muskogee and Kenny and I have decided to hold off on our engagement.

It’s not that we aren’t happy or crazy about each other. Both are true. We just felt that we’d rushed into that level of commitment way too soon. Actually, Kenny moved here to be with me. It helps that he has a totally decent job and he really likes it here. While I get homesick at times and miss places like Hot Topic and Starbucks, he’s totally worth it.

Kenny works at American Foundry on the mold line. It’s dirty, rough, and dangerous but he enjoys it. The pay is fair and he gets pretty good benefits. I’m back at KMart. I’m not sure what my position is there – I thought I got hired for shoes but I’ve been working as a cashier quite a bit lately. Oh well. It’s a job.


Veggie Lasagna

3 03 2010

I hate coming up with titles for these things. Srsly.

So, I’m off work today. Yesterday didn’t blow. A bit slow, but it was Tuesday. Probably came close to making my numbers.  Remade one display bed- kept the bedding but added some accessories and generally made it look more visually appealing. Changed out another. I LOVE doing the beds and displays- it’s like making an art piece but it’s totally interactive.  Seriously, displays are my favorite part of my job by a long shot.

Yikes, it’s chilly in here.

I’m coping better with my decision to end my relationship. It wasn’t that I don’t love Eric more than life itself, because I do. I don’t anticipate being over him for a long time. But he went to Rhode Island for the summer and hasn’t come back. He may never. And from what I’ve heard RI is sort of a crappy place to live. Also, I always got the feeling that he didn’t take our relationship nearly as seriously as I did. I don’t date just for shits and giggles. I date with the intention of finding my life partner. He just didn’t seem keen on the idea of getting married and having babies- not sure if it was me or he just doesn’t want to get married, period. Dude’s been through 3 failed engagements so that’s probably a big issue right there.

Point is, I love him. I do. Sometimes I wish I had a magic wand to wave that would make all the bad parts of our relationship go away. But that’s not realistic. And I can do better than to spend what’s left of my prime waiting around for someone to realize that they love me as much as I love them. If it hasn’t happened by now it won’t. And I just need to suck it up and move on.  Even if it means I could very well spend the rest of my life alone because nobody will ever compare to him (his good points, at least).

Bleh. Need to get out of this funk.